Tuesday, October 13, 2015
Taking the Next Step
I can't believe it's finally happening! I feel like after a year of complaining we are finally moving in together! This is a huge step for me, as I have never lived with anyone before. I can say I have mixed emotions about this. Part of me is very excited and can't wait to start moving and decorating our apartment. The other half of me is scared. I am not going to lie I am going to miss my mom and my cats. I will have to go and visit them a few times a week.
One concern that I want to address is how am I going to put up with Donald. He is not mean, but he is extremely lazy. I will not be able to tolerate that. He will have to contribute to the cleaning and housework as well. I have told him that; I just hope he complies. That's one thing I will not put up with is his laziness. I also am going to start cooking healthier recipes. I love Don and I care a lot about his health, but he really does need to lose some weight. I want to discuss that with him, but it is a sensitive subject and I don't want to hurt him or make him feel bad. I know he already feels bad. The last thing I want to do is make him feel worse about himself.
I am going to start making him work out with me as well. It's great that our apartment has a 24hr free access gym. That will help out a lot, not with just him but with me as well. I can stand to get into shape a bit. I just want us to start eating healthier and being more fit.
Moving into our own apartment is making me excited. I have a lot of decoration ideas to make it pretty. Don already gave me the green light in that department. This is going to be the fun part. The not-so-fun part is the finances. I already handed all that responsibility over to Don. HA! I know my own bills to pay, but he can manage the rest.
All this change in my life is going to be drastic and it's going to take me a while to adjust, but I am definitely looking forward to what the rest of this year holds for us.
Here's to happiness & love.
XOXOX
MONICA*NICOLE
One concern that I want to address is how am I going to put up with Donald. He is not mean, but he is extremely lazy. I will not be able to tolerate that. He will have to contribute to the cleaning and housework as well. I have told him that; I just hope he complies. That's one thing I will not put up with is his laziness. I also am going to start cooking healthier recipes. I love Don and I care a lot about his health, but he really does need to lose some weight. I want to discuss that with him, but it is a sensitive subject and I don't want to hurt him or make him feel bad. I know he already feels bad. The last thing I want to do is make him feel worse about himself.
I am going to start making him work out with me as well. It's great that our apartment has a 24hr free access gym. That will help out a lot, not with just him but with me as well. I can stand to get into shape a bit. I just want us to start eating healthier and being more fit.
Moving into our own apartment is making me excited. I have a lot of decoration ideas to make it pretty. Don already gave me the green light in that department. This is going to be the fun part. The not-so-fun part is the finances. I already handed all that responsibility over to Don. HA! I know my own bills to pay, but he can manage the rest.
All this change in my life is going to be drastic and it's going to take me a while to adjust, but I am definitely looking forward to what the rest of this year holds for us.
Here's to happiness & love.
XOXOX
MONICA*NICOLE
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Looking Ahead...
Lately, I have been thinking; mainly about the future. My future. I am stuck at AT&T as a tech rep, but I don't want to be here for the rest of my life. I really need to figure out what I would like to do with my life. I want to figure out something fun that I would enjoy doing. I just don't feel Kentucky has that kind of opportunity. Maybe in the bigger cities. I wish I had the money to buy a house out in Lexington or Louisville. I would love to get a job and live out there especially with Donald. I think we would be a lot more successful and happier away from Ashland. The city does not have much to offer. I just feel like I am stuck herre with no where to go and no way to progress. I think Don and I need to move away; however, there are other cities that are pretty much the same as here. The grass is not always greener on the other side. To make a long story short: I am pretty much sick of my job.
Right now, I would rather be working at Cinemark with the old crew. I loved that job; it was mostly fun. The people there made it fun. I was not always stuck at a desk. I was behind a counter, but I was on my feet most of the day. I really enjoyed that job. That's where I met, Donald, or as I used to call him: Mr. W.
Little did I know that he would forever change my life. I wished I had been smarter about a few things that didn't cause Don to lose his job. I will say some of the chaos was caused by me, but then other people didn't need to stick their nose in our business. I know a lot of co-workers at Cinemark had a crush on Don, but I am so thankful that I am the one he chose. Perhaps, if he still worked for Cinemark things would not be as good as they are no. No need to dwell on the "what-if's".
Right now at this point in my life, I thought I would have more accomplished, maybe even have a kid...or two. I must say that despite the lack of those thing I am quite happy. The only thing that would make me happier is when Don and I finally get our own place. That is the one thing I really want. I am going to start pushing him towards it more, because we are both procrastinators and we always wait until the last moment. This cannot wait until the fall. I would like to see us moved into our own house by July 2015. I am not looking for something elegant or expensive...just a small apartment that we can call ours. Then maybe in like 5 years we can move away to a bigger city such as: Columbus, Cincinnati, Lexington, Louisville.
These are things I would like to see happen, and for now I am just looking ahead to all the possibilities.
XOXO
Monica Nicole
Right now, I would rather be working at Cinemark with the old crew. I loved that job; it was mostly fun. The people there made it fun. I was not always stuck at a desk. I was behind a counter, but I was on my feet most of the day. I really enjoyed that job. That's where I met, Donald, or as I used to call him: Mr. W.
Little did I know that he would forever change my life. I wished I had been smarter about a few things that didn't cause Don to lose his job. I will say some of the chaos was caused by me, but then other people didn't need to stick their nose in our business. I know a lot of co-workers at Cinemark had a crush on Don, but I am so thankful that I am the one he chose. Perhaps, if he still worked for Cinemark things would not be as good as they are no. No need to dwell on the "what-if's".
Right now at this point in my life, I thought I would have more accomplished, maybe even have a kid...or two. I must say that despite the lack of those thing I am quite happy. The only thing that would make me happier is when Don and I finally get our own place. That is the one thing I really want. I am going to start pushing him towards it more, because we are both procrastinators and we always wait until the last moment. This cannot wait until the fall. I would like to see us moved into our own house by July 2015. I am not looking for something elegant or expensive...just a small apartment that we can call ours. Then maybe in like 5 years we can move away to a bigger city such as: Columbus, Cincinnati, Lexington, Louisville.
These are things I would like to see happen, and for now I am just looking ahead to all the possibilities.
XOXO
Monica Nicole
Friday, January 23, 2015
2015- A start to a New Me.
Every year I see multiple posts relating the new year, new me type of situation. I always try to commit to at least two new activities that would improve my life, but this year that has changed. Yes, I want to get in shape and lose weight, but let's be honest, I don't have enough motivation and determination to get there. Maybe, before summer hits I will get my abs back, but that's not the concern for this post. This year is about me and finding myself.
This year I don't want to improve my physical appearance, I want to improve on the inside. I want to learn more and work harder to perform my job better, and hopefully get a better schedule. I want to work on my intellect and research subjects that I am not familiar with. There is so much to know, and I want to become smarter. Part of this reason, is because I think Don thinks I'm just another "pretty face". I want him to know that I am smart. I may not know a lot about history and politics, and I want to make myself smarter in those areas. I do need to be aware of what is taking place in the political world around me and aware of the news.
The other aspect I want to work on is my maturity. Soon, I will be almost 30 years old, and for some reason, that makes me nervous. I no longer want to act like a "teenager or young adult." It is time I take my life seriously and start planning ahead. Looking into the future. I really don't see myself working at AT&T for the rest of my life. I wish I could find a career. I would have liked to be a teacher, but that didn't work out for me. I hope I can find something I am good at and that allows me to live comfortably.
This year Don and I are committed to getting our own apartment. Well, let me rephrase that, I am. he seems a bit lazy about the whole thing. I keep pushing him and I still don't get a response. Sometimes with him, it's like trying to move a brick wall; it don't budge at all. On a side note: I really wish Don would work out more!! I am not trying to be shallow, but he is a little 'heavy'. I don't want him to get any bigger. Hopefully, I can talk to him about that, but that's always a difficult subject to discuss with someone. I am not sure how to bring it up!
One thing is for sure, I really want to move in with Donald. I am positive it will change our relationship. I will become more bitchy and irritable. I will push him and try to help him become healthier. I just wish in the near future...maybe next year....maybe, that he would propose to me. Every girl dreams of a white wedding. I just want mine to be with Donald Wieteki.
I think that is all for now.
Peace. Love.
Monica.Nicole
This year I don't want to improve my physical appearance, I want to improve on the inside. I want to learn more and work harder to perform my job better, and hopefully get a better schedule. I want to work on my intellect and research subjects that I am not familiar with. There is so much to know, and I want to become smarter. Part of this reason, is because I think Don thinks I'm just another "pretty face". I want him to know that I am smart. I may not know a lot about history and politics, and I want to make myself smarter in those areas. I do need to be aware of what is taking place in the political world around me and aware of the news.
The other aspect I want to work on is my maturity. Soon, I will be almost 30 years old, and for some reason, that makes me nervous. I no longer want to act like a "teenager or young adult." It is time I take my life seriously and start planning ahead. Looking into the future. I really don't see myself working at AT&T for the rest of my life. I wish I could find a career. I would have liked to be a teacher, but that didn't work out for me. I hope I can find something I am good at and that allows me to live comfortably.
This year Don and I are committed to getting our own apartment. Well, let me rephrase that, I am. he seems a bit lazy about the whole thing. I keep pushing him and I still don't get a response. Sometimes with him, it's like trying to move a brick wall; it don't budge at all. On a side note: I really wish Don would work out more!! I am not trying to be shallow, but he is a little 'heavy'. I don't want him to get any bigger. Hopefully, I can talk to him about that, but that's always a difficult subject to discuss with someone. I am not sure how to bring it up!
One thing is for sure, I really want to move in with Donald. I am positive it will change our relationship. I will become more bitchy and irritable. I will push him and try to help him become healthier. I just wish in the near future...maybe next year....maybe, that he would propose to me. Every girl dreams of a white wedding. I just want mine to be with Donald Wieteki.
I think that is all for now.
Peace. Love.
Monica.Nicole
Thursday, November 27, 2014
✳Addicted to Love✳♥
Real love isn't just a euphoric, spontaneous feeling--it's a deliberate choice--a plan to love each other for better and worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health" .
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.
There isn't one person in this world that I want more than I want you.
"My God", he gasped, "you're fun to kiss"- F. Scott Fitzgerald
You don't find love, it finds you. It's got a little bit to do with destiny, fate and what's written in the stars.
When I tell you...I LOVE YOU, I don't do it out of habit or just to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you ARE the BEST THING that has ever happened to me.
I wish I'd done everything on Earth with you- F. Scott Fitzgerald
It's easy to take off your clothes an have sex, people do it all the time, but opening up your soul to someone. Letting them into you spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes and dreams...that is truly being naked.
Strong relationships require choosing to love each other even in those moments when you struggle to like each other.
Love is a meeting of two souls, fully accepting the dark & the light within each other bound by the courage to grow through struggle into bliss.
You should never have to look for evidence that someone loves you. True love is crystal clear.
Love is meant to be an adventure!
He had the kind of eyes you could get lost in...and I guess I did.
Love is not affectionate feeling but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained. - CS Lewis
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird. When we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours wee join up with them and fall into mutual weirdness and call it love.- Dr. Seuss
Love is a drug, and we are all a junkie.
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.
There isn't one person in this world that I want more than I want you.
"My God", he gasped, "you're fun to kiss"- F. Scott Fitzgerald
You don't find love, it finds you. It's got a little bit to do with destiny, fate and what's written in the stars.
When I tell you...I LOVE YOU, I don't do it out of habit or just to make conversation. I say it to remind you that you ARE the BEST THING that has ever happened to me.
I wish I'd done everything on Earth with you- F. Scott Fitzgerald
It's easy to take off your clothes an have sex, people do it all the time, but opening up your soul to someone. Letting them into you spirit, thoughts, fears, future, hopes and dreams...that is truly being naked.
Strong relationships require choosing to love each other even in those moments when you struggle to like each other.
Love is a meeting of two souls, fully accepting the dark & the light within each other bound by the courage to grow through struggle into bliss.
You should never have to look for evidence that someone loves you. True love is crystal clear.
Love is meant to be an adventure!
He had the kind of eyes you could get lost in...and I guess I did.
Love is not affectionate feeling but a steady wish for the loved person's ultimate good as far as it can be obtained. - CS Lewis
We are all a little weird and life's a little weird. When we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours wee join up with them and fall into mutual weirdness and call it love.- Dr. Seuss
Love is a drug, and we are all a junkie.
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Thank you AT&T for discombobulating me!
I know I haven't updated my blog in quite sometime, but things are going okay for the most part. I am just posting this to vent. I need to expel my hatred for the company AT&T. No, it's not about any of their products or services. I actually work for AT&T. I am a tech support specialist. The job title may not sound that bad, but it doesn't have many benefits. I do get full health, dental, and vision benefits, but as far as job perks, they are far and few. I started working there about a year ago. I left Cinemark due to the drama that came with dating Donald.
I basically hate the way AT&T runs the company. It is not smooth and it is not very beneficial to the employees. I even complained about that in the employee survey. I just hate the way they handle things. There is always a better way. Since I started there I despise the way they do the scheduling process. Every 5-6 months employees are able to bid on a new schedule. They put the most desired schedule as their number one choice and proceed to rank the available schedules. The thing is; this only changes every 5-6 months. I don't believe this is fair to all the employees. Some employees are students as well or have families to care for. I honestly think AT&T should do a schedule bidding every 3 months. Now that is something I could handle. I am saying 3 months because I know with over 400 employees it is hard to develop an organized schedule. Giving each manager a three month notification in advance would allow them to prepare properly for the changes. That would be more beneficial to the employees and managers as well. It would also help improve our stats as well. I just think it would be more productive as a company to hold more frequent shift bids.
The other thing about AT&T that ticks me off is their attendance policy. Once you become a full-time employee you are given eight points for the year. If I miss a day because I am sick or family emergency, then I gain a point against the eight. They even give you a point if you miss work due to severe weather conditions, and that is where I say it is not fair. No one can control the weather, and I don't see how AT&T can hold it against us if we can't make it because the roads are covered in ice. I am sorry, but I am not risking my life to make it to work. They can fire me, but at least I know I will be alive.I just find how they handle things to be poorly executed.
The new schedules just got released and well I am very upset about it. I work 2-11 with Saturdays and Sundays off. I am happy I get the weekends off. Don; however, got a shift working 11-8 with Thursdays and Fridays off. Yeah, not even a single day to spend together. This is why I am pushing for us to get our own place, besides I am tired of dealing with my mom. I love her, but I am done. But that's neither here nor there. I am just worried about how he's going to spend his time off. I really hope he doesn't start talking to some other girls and seeing other people. I love him with all my heart and I really want to be with him. I am determined to make this relationship work.
I am tired, exhausted, stressed and I am going to bed. Rant ended.
Monica Nicole.
I basically hate the way AT&T runs the company. It is not smooth and it is not very beneficial to the employees. I even complained about that in the employee survey. I just hate the way they handle things. There is always a better way. Since I started there I despise the way they do the scheduling process. Every 5-6 months employees are able to bid on a new schedule. They put the most desired schedule as their number one choice and proceed to rank the available schedules. The thing is; this only changes every 5-6 months. I don't believe this is fair to all the employees. Some employees are students as well or have families to care for. I honestly think AT&T should do a schedule bidding every 3 months. Now that is something I could handle. I am saying 3 months because I know with over 400 employees it is hard to develop an organized schedule. Giving each manager a three month notification in advance would allow them to prepare properly for the changes. That would be more beneficial to the employees and managers as well. It would also help improve our stats as well. I just think it would be more productive as a company to hold more frequent shift bids.
The other thing about AT&T that ticks me off is their attendance policy. Once you become a full-time employee you are given eight points for the year. If I miss a day because I am sick or family emergency, then I gain a point against the eight. They even give you a point if you miss work due to severe weather conditions, and that is where I say it is not fair. No one can control the weather, and I don't see how AT&T can hold it against us if we can't make it because the roads are covered in ice. I am sorry, but I am not risking my life to make it to work. They can fire me, but at least I know I will be alive.I just find how they handle things to be poorly executed.
The new schedules just got released and well I am very upset about it. I work 2-11 with Saturdays and Sundays off. I am happy I get the weekends off. Don; however, got a shift working 11-8 with Thursdays and Fridays off. Yeah, not even a single day to spend together. This is why I am pushing for us to get our own place, besides I am tired of dealing with my mom. I love her, but I am done. But that's neither here nor there. I am just worried about how he's going to spend his time off. I really hope he doesn't start talking to some other girls and seeing other people. I love him with all my heart and I really want to be with him. I am determined to make this relationship work.
I am tired, exhausted, stressed and I am going to bed. Rant ended.
Monica Nicole.
Friday, August 9, 2013
What is Love?
What is Love? There are many different definitions of love. One states that Love is a profoundly, tender affection for another person. Another defines it as deep passion and sexual desire. I honestly don't believe either of those. I believe we all have to conclude our own definitions of love. Yes, I do believe that it is a profound affection for another person. But with all the media focuses, does that include same-sex relationships? I don't think "LOVE" sees gender. The heart and the mind creates a profound attraction to a certain person, but the mind nor the heart sees gender as a key. If two people are in love, let them be, whether they are heterosexual or homosexual. I feel that love does not define gender. Love is a strange emotion, or a state of being. Love can bring happiness and joy to a person, but it can also end in heartache and sorrow. I cannot define love clearly. It is foggy, sometimes unclear, but when a person is in love, they will know it, feel it in their bones. Love is sort of like a drug that produces the same chemical effect as a "high." People do not want this feeling to end so they will do anything to keep it, even if it ends up hurting other people in the process. Love can be very dangerous and cause people to think un-clearly, and take negative actions against others in order to attain that feeling. When that feeling is lost, emptiness and darkness sets in and the feeling of despair and loneliness takes over. Some feel helpless and afraid that this will not go away. In the end is love really worth all this heartache? I believe so. Nothing in this world is perfect. We need to take the opportunity and fall with it. Love hard and deeply because we can learn from our heartaches and mistakes, and makes life's journey a little more exciting.
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