The Madness Inside My Head: January 2012

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Thoughts in My Head.........

I have to get this out of my head before it kills me. My head is filled up with complete nonsense. I don't wanna deal with it anymore. I go back to school...which is good, have a few easy classes and a difficult class. It's just it seems like I have one person following me around constantly...and I can't take it anymore! I don't need a second shadow. Dennis a guy that I like for just friends, seems to constantly want more from me. Yeah, we had sex a few times, but that's all he wants. He don't wanna establish a relationship, but hell I don't wanna be with someone like that either. I want a guy who is going to like me for who I am and want to be with me. Sex is just a bonus. He's always asking me to come and stay at his house. I don't want to, because it fucking smells! It's gross! I am sick of people treating me like I am just a fucking sexual object. I have respect and class, so they can kiss my ASS! I am not tolerating his bullshit any longer. I don't have romantic feelings for him; I definitely don't want to work on starting a relationship with him. I can't open up to him. He just irritates the living hell out of me. Everytime I see his face, I wanna stab his eyes out with pencils :). I just wish he would quit being so fucking clingy. Guys aren't usually that clingy, but he is. I can't stand that. He's taking up all my air. What he really needs to do is back the fuck up and let me breathe quit trying to convince me that I want you. I am a girl who knows what she wants, and I definitely don't want him! Stupid bastard. I can find someone better. Hell he's even a cheapskate. Won't hardly take me out anywhere, and if he ever does I have to pay! Now, that shit just doesn't fly with me. I am about to delete & block his ass off Facebook. I don't wanna deal with his immature drama. He always keep saying "US" there is NO FUCKING US! I DON'T WANNA FUCK YOU. I DON'T LIKE YOU. I have told him that I only like him as a friend, but he keeps saying "You know you like me." No one knows *EXACTLY* how I feel except me, so until they walk in my shows, don't fucking assume you know anything about me. I am busy with my life and I just don't have time for high school drama. I want to find a guy who can appreciate me and respect me. I don't deserve just anyone....I deserve the RIGHT ONE. He's not it...not even close.
xoxoxox
Monicaa

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