Voice Inside My Head part II

HighSchool Life
I graduated from BCHS in 2004. It feels like forever ago. My first year it was very awkward, because I rarely had friends and didn't fit in well. I wasn't smart so I didn't do very well in my classes. Maybe if I had tried harder then I would have done better, but I will never know. My sophomore year was probably one of my worst years, because I didn't fit in well with any cliques and the friends I did have at the time, bailed on me. I kinda felt like Lindsay Lohan in Mean girls eating the bathroom, but hell I never did that. I always went outside and sit in a corner with my portable CD player (MP3 players were not big back then). Junior year was good. I even had a boyfriend for a short time that is until my "friend" started a nasty rumor about me! Looking back now, she was just jealous and it makes me laugh. Senior year was the best. I got to go on a cruise to Cancun Mexico, even though my roommates sucked! It was hella fun. I didn't want to come back. I wanted to party with the Mexicans!! :) I did go to prom, but it wasn't what everyone cracked it up to be. I thought getting dressed up was the best. I didn't actually like going to the damn dance anyways. Then I finally graduated and I couldn't have been happier. I was glad to get the hell out of BCHS, but then I didn't have a clue as to where I was going to go or what I was going to do. 
College (First Time)
I wasn't smart enough to get accepted into a four year university. My dream was to go to UK but that didn't work out. I ended up going to ACTC (Ashland Community & Technical College). It wasn't that great, but that's where I started meeting guys and they were actually noticing me. I'm not going to lie I liked the attention, but what girl is going to say no they don't like attention from hot boys? hmm...NONE! I still didn't have my license, but I met new people and started hanging out and partying a lot more than I did in high school. That's when I really started to "break out from the box". I loved staying out all night drinking and talking to guys. It was fun. I didn't want a boyfriend at the time; I had more fun being single and not dealing with people's bullshit! It's a lot easier that way. It's also easier breaking something off before I got too close and got hurt. I'm not an emotional person; I keep mine locked up and if someone starts getting too close or clingy I end up pushing them away, because I know I'll just end up heartbroken and miserable over some guy. Why put myself through that? No thanks. I'll just wait to find someone I can/maybe fall in love with. Back to topic. I went to ACTC for two years and guess what? I didn't accomplish shit! Why? Well because they have fat ass lazy advisors who just felt the need to throw me in classes that were irrelevant to what I wanted (Computer Science). I dropped out because I had surgery and failed two classes. The professors refused to let me make-up the work at all. After my surgery I returned and they made me re-take classes I already had...but PASSED! They wouldn't let me retake the ones I FAILED?! 0.o It didn't make any sense to me. They also cheated me out of $1000 of student grant money with some bullshit letter saying I owed that money to the school! I then wasn't eligible for grants or student loans so I had to drop out because I had no other way to pay for my school. 
I am going to stop here for now because the next post takes a different shift...becomes a lot darker and emotional.
xoxox
Monica<3

Voices Inside My Head

I'm getting a little personal with this entry. I rarely do this, but I'd figure I'd give my few readers a look inside my head. 

WARNING: IT CAN BE SCARY IN HERE!

I live in a small town in Kentucky. Nothing amazing ever happens here...trust me I've been here for my whole life! It's small and boring. I do want to get out and will...eventually I just need to get financially stable so I can move. 

BACKGROUND BASICS

My name is Monica and on Twitter I am @Glitz_Girl86. I do have a personal Facebook but I don't really add a lot of people to it. I am twenty-six and a full-time college student at Ohio University Southern Campus. I plan to get my associates in Digital Art. What I do with that I have no fucking idea. Hopefully I can land a job as a graphic designer somewhere and then return back to school for my bachelors. I am probably the only person in the world who actually enjoys college...most of the time. I am currently employed at CINEMARK MOVIES 10 in KY. It is a small minimum wage job, but I enjoy it! I will later discuss certain aspects of my job. On the weekends, or when I have free-time I like to hang out with my friends and go see movies and go party!! I try to have as much fun as I can. Life is about enjoying it and you have to make the best of it, even when it feels like it's the worst. I am a huge daydreamer. I get lost in my own little world sometimes....frankly because I like it there!! Sometimes it's even better than my boring reality in which I am stuck in. I am a very honest person...sometimes I can be a bit too honest and I get called a BITCH for it. But I say oh well, truth may hurt but it's better than a deceiving lie which instills false hopes on someone. I am a true believer in equal rights. Who is the government to tell us who we should or shouldn't love. They already are trying to turn us int puppets and taking away our rights. But politics is a different story. I believe that people should be allowed to marry who they want. No one is to judge others. Love is love: whether it's a woman and woman or man and man love is the same. Love has no gender, no race, no ethnicity. ALL IS LOVE!! We should all embrace love because it only happens once in a great while and some of us are lucky to find that special someone. I, however, have not found my perfect someone. Sometimes I feel like I will always be alone, but there's this small part of me...deep inside...a very small part that still hopes I will one day find love. I try not to let that part of me show very often....rarely do I embrace it. I try to lock it away and keep it buried in the bottom of my heart. I have hopes and dreams of getting married and having children one day! I want two kids one boy and one girl. I have picked out a few names even. 

Girls Names

Keira Leighanne

Natalie Renea

Taylor Elizabeth

and more...but I want something different and unique. 

Boys Names

Adam Thomas

Thomas Tyler

Brayden Tyler

Haven Michael

Taylor Vincent

MORE TO COME....

I have to go && I will return and update later. 

XOXO MONICA XOXO