Every year I see multiple posts relating the new year, new me type of situation. I always try to commit to at least two new activities that would improve my life, but this year that has changed. Yes, I want to get in shape and lose weight, but let's be honest, I don't have enough motivation and determination to get there. Maybe, before summer hits I will get my abs back, but that's not the concern for this post. This year is about me and finding myself.
This year I don't want to improve my physical appearance, I want to improve on the inside. I want to learn more and work harder to perform my job better, and hopefully get a better schedule. I want to work on my intellect and research subjects that I am not familiar with. There is so much to know, and I want to become smarter. Part of this reason, is because I think Don thinks I'm just another "pretty face". I want him to know that I am smart. I may not know a lot about history and politics, and I want to make myself smarter in those areas. I do need to be aware of what is taking place in the political world around me and aware of the news.
The other aspect I want to work on is my maturity. Soon, I will be almost 30 years old, and for some reason, that makes me nervous. I no longer want to act like a "teenager or young adult." It is time I take my life seriously and start planning ahead. Looking into the future. I really don't see myself working at AT&T for the rest of my life. I wish I could find a career. I would have liked to be a teacher, but that didn't work out for me. I hope I can find something I am good at and that allows me to live comfortably.
This year Don and I are committed to getting our own apartment. Well, let me rephrase that, I am. he seems a bit lazy about the whole thing. I keep pushing him and I still don't get a response. Sometimes with him, it's like trying to move a brick wall; it don't budge at all. On a side note: I really wish Don would work out more!! I am not trying to be shallow, but he is a little 'heavy'. I don't want him to get any bigger. Hopefully, I can talk to him about that, but that's always a difficult subject to discuss with someone. I am not sure how to bring it up!
One thing is for sure, I really want to move in with Donald. I am positive it will change our relationship. I will become more bitchy and irritable. I will push him and try to help him become healthier. I just wish in the near future...maybe next year....maybe, that he would propose to me. Every girl dreams of a white wedding. I just want mine to be with Donald Wieteki.
I think that is all for now.
Peace. Love.
Monica.Nicole
