Right now I have a lot of things on my mind and no one really to vent to. So I decided to come here and release all this pent up stress to a bunch of strangers who may or may not read this....I don't care either way. I just need to get shit off my mind.
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My mom has been in a negative mood the last few days and I can't really take it anymore. She should at least be thankful for what we do have, instead of complaining about what we don't have. It may not be the best, but we do have a house and food to eat and a car to get us back and forth and a few spare dollars in the bank for an emergency. It could always be better, but then again it could be worse than what it is. I am just thankful that I do have a house with food a car and my mom because even if she is being a bitch, she is still there for me. I love her, but she is just getting on my nerves. I am also thankful for my friends and family and the fact that I have a job! It may not be the best, but I am thankful that I have some sort of income. My cats. I am thankful for Phoebe & Ozzy. I do not have kids at the moment, but hopefully that will change soon, so for now my cats are like my children! My life is far from perfect...it isn't even exciting sometimes, but I am thankful for what I do have! I don't like to dwell on what my life lacks; even though I tend to do that from time to time. I have a small inkling of hope that my life will improve through dedication, determination, confidence and hard-work. I would like to think that it would pay off in the end. I just need to work on the confidence part. There are days when I feel lesser. I don't feel like I am good enough, pretty enough, smart enough. I just don't feel like I am enough at all to a point. Days go by and I look in the mirror and I feel confident, and pretty and smart, but then I see all these other women/girls and they're pretty and more successful than me. Then I think...I don't want to be like them. I want to be me and I want have an impact on the world. Moral of all this: Don't try to be like everyone else. Find your niche and your talent and take off. Don't spend time comparing yourself to others, because you'll always pick up on your flaws. You are you and you are great you just have to embrace your greatness and then you will accomplish great things in life. Don't be so quick to give up, because strength will prevail even through the darkest of times.
I am not the best person to come to for positive advice, but just don't be a quitter. Life can throw a curveball and before we realize it, it seems as if we are on this winding path of hell. Don't stray and you shall see the light. And I am not being religious here, I am just saying you will see the end of the path. Life is too precious to waste on hatred and prejudice. Let go of all those and hold on to hope, peace, love, and justice. Those are things in life worth fighting for!
xoxo
Monica (:
